Well...Insanity Max is just that...insane and maximum output...3 weeks down and 2 weeks to go...today was Max Conditioning, straight 45 minute endurance...yesterday was recovery day and boy was that enjoyable....like I said before, i never thought i could do some of things we doing...but don't get me wrong...i sure don't look like the guys on video doing it...but i'm doing it to the best of ability and then some...
here's 2 gems God placed in my life last week and then this week:
1) last week Monday, i was like...ok, i gotta save some energy in the earlier part so i can last till the end...in essencse, not giving my all so that i can reseerve some stuff for the end...and midway through the workout i realized what i was doing in this workout was exactly what i do with God sometime...i hold out or hold back things from him, thinking i need to have some reserve for the end...like God needs me to hold out or do something for him in the end...i know that He doesn't need anything from me except my desire to be obedient to Him with all things...not just the ones i want to release when i want to release...the next 4 days of workout and since then, i have been giving all that i can from the get go...even though it kills me...but just like my faith and walk...i must release all to Him and trust that His will is bigger than my will for me.
2) earlier this week and even today...Ellie shared a little bit about it in his blog, cause we talked about it twice this week...i catch myself at times...instead of focusing of being in the moment of working out or that excersice...i'm thinking or planning out what i need to do for the day, or what i eating for breakfast or whatevers...instead of focusing my will and heart on the exercise at that moment, i let my mind focus on things that doens't need my focus at that time...like i'm there but not really...so we talked about that and realized that is like how i am with God at times...I know He's there and He wants my eyes, heart, hand and life to be focused on Him...and yet, i am only going through the motions....fixing my eyes on Jesus is key in my walk and transformation...yes i may get sidetracked and have ADD at times...but recalibrating my eyes and heart back to Him is key...so just like in the workout...staying in that moment of that excerice is like focusing on Jesus regardless of the circumstance or trials or actions going on around...
this might not make sense to anybody...but it was clear revelation for me...give my all to God and He will do the rest and keep my eyes nad heart and ears focused on Jesus....
finally...my diet...the ultimate battle of principalities...its not great, and its not bad...i defiintely have cut down on the volume and eating better breakfasts..but its the other stuff at times...i really need to break the bondage of fried chicken and other fatty foods....as we head into the last 2 weeks, we start a fasting and praying series tomorrow...so i am going to pray intentionally and seek God's wisdom on why i should fast...in our readings today, Isaiah talked about that..so there is confirmation on that....my diet must reflect my intentions to be transformed inside and out...
Thank You Lord for your faithfulness in me...Lord, have Your way in me....Sean Out!!! love you all
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