Well, 7 days ago was my last post and I was so jacked about heading into week 4 of 5 of Insantiy...well guess what..I never show up for 1 day of working out with the crew...i still worked out on Tuesday and Wednesday on my own and those days felt good, but let me tell you...when you put out your plans to discipline your body for the public to see, in being transparent...I believe, the enemy (satan) does whatever it can to take us out...to blow our witness, to blow our desires for God's very best...
Most of you know the trials we have been under in our work envinroment, and then to add to that some health issues for Lori, and then to add to that the blessings and ministry that God has called me into at New Hope Sand Island, and then to that - counseling of multiple friends and family into God's word and will...and boom, my body and spirit was tired...and the necessary rest in the Lord, the sabbath that is so needed was to late because I was not disciplined enough to rest in God...so on Monday, I was just beat...I slept late Sunday night (early Monday AM) did not even hear my alarm-I think i unconsciouly turned it off...made every excuse not to get up...and did not...so i said, Sean..today you doing one sabbath...ended up being a selfish sabbath..yeah i rested, but the rest was in TV, in food, in laziness..vs resting in God's word, worship and time...so a blown day..Tuesday, same thing-same excuse...but work had to get done..so i went to work, but with no workout...come Tuesday midday and Wednesday, guilt sets in and boy did I need to get to the gym...and i did and i felt physically better..i actually did a 2 mile jog on Wedenesday on the treadmill and it felt great...but then comes Thursday and Friday...no workout at all cause i had to catch up on work...boy talk about "flat tire"....but wait...no condemnation..I believe God was reminding me to rest in Him, not on my own self an own strenght...and i receive that totally well...so on MOnday, I am back in the gym with the guys so we can finish this undertaking strong...week 5 of 5...in the name of Jesus, who has claimed victory for me...I set my eye on His prize and God willing and me being obedietn...will persevere to finish well.
Finally..the ultimate challenge for me - my eating habits..it is safe to say, this past week was not the best..becasue of the lack of discipline ni resting in Him and delaying my workouts...i went back to my old eating habits...no breakfast, big lunches, and ok dinner..i was not intentional in my eating...and it all started wtih last week Sunday's taste of Sand Island...my will power was non-existent...why, cause i relied on my will power and not the will of God...so here it is...i put this past week behind me and consider it not 2 steps back...but a bunch of steps sideways...my eyes must be focused on Jesus and his path for me....
thanks for all the prayers and suppor to all and sharing this messed up week helps me to be accountable to you all...time to ManUp now and allow God's will to take over my insufficient will power...God bless us all and love you all, Sean
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